A new chapter...

...has begun in my life. I have graduated from Maranatha Baptist Bible College with an Associate of Science in Office Technology. The past summer I volunteered at Continental Baptist Missions in Rockford, Michigan. It was not exactly what I expected, but it was very enjoyable. In July, I went to see my sister for a weekend before attending CBM's annual family conference near where my sister lives. That Saturday that I was with my sister before the conference my dad called us and told us that our Grandpa Carr had passed away. So, instead of having a nice leisurely week at the family conference, I was flying to New York with my sister for my Grandfather's funeral. It was nice to be home for a week though, and it gave me time to get some rest that I needed. Any way I finished out the rest of my summer at CBM without further difficulties. I then went to New York for a week for doctor's appointments and such. I am current at Appalachian Bible College with a double major. I am working on getting my B.A. in Bible/Theology and also my B.A. in Camping Ministries.

What do you do...

when everything seems to be going wrong? I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what's expected of me. My grandpa has cancer, and is unsaved. He doesn't have much longer I don't think. I really want to go home, but I don't think that is an option for me unless something drastic happens. I am not so sure about this whole trusting God thing anymore. Don't get me wrong I trust God completely (I think, well you know it's an everyday struggle) but I am not sure if I should keep going to school when I have no money to pay for it and I am already in over my head. I don't have a paying job and I honestly don't know what He wants me to do anymore.