Faith...

...so I have been listening to this radio station K-Love. They only play Christian music, and it has really been an encouragement to me. Instead of setting New Year's resolutions the djs have picked a word to be sort of their focus for the year. In listening to them talking about all the things that they learned or new habits they developed as a result of the word they chose. So, I decided to choose a word for the year myself. My word is "faith." I am praying that God will use this word in my life this year to help me to be more faithful to Him, and to have more faith in Him. I know those two sound the same but to me they aren't as similar as you may think. I would like to be more faithful to God in my daily life and walk with Him, and to be faithful in my daily devotions. I would also would like to have more faith in God, that He will do for me what He says He will in the Bible.

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. For by it the elders obtained a good report. Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear." Hebrews 11:1-3

A new chapter...

...has begun in my life. I have graduated from Maranatha Baptist Bible College with an Associate of Science in Office Technology. The past summer I volunteered at Continental Baptist Missions in Rockford, Michigan. It was not exactly what I expected, but it was very enjoyable. In July, I went to see my sister for a weekend before attending CBM's annual family conference near where my sister lives. That Saturday that I was with my sister before the conference my dad called us and told us that our Grandpa Carr had passed away. So, instead of having a nice leisurely week at the family conference, I was flying to New York with my sister for my Grandfather's funeral. It was nice to be home for a week though, and it gave me time to get some rest that I needed. Any way I finished out the rest of my summer at CBM without further difficulties. I then went to New York for a week for doctor's appointments and such. I am current at Appalachian Bible College with a double major. I am working on getting my B.A. in Bible/Theology and also my B.A. in Camping Ministries.

What do you do...

when everything seems to be going wrong? I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what's expected of me. My grandpa has cancer, and is unsaved. He doesn't have much longer I don't think. I really want to go home, but I don't think that is an option for me unless something drastic happens. I am not so sure about this whole trusting God thing anymore. Don't get me wrong I trust God completely (I think, well you know it's an everyday struggle) but I am not sure if I should keep going to school when I have no money to pay for it and I am already in over my head. I don't have a paying job and I honestly don't know what He wants me to do anymore.